remember the days that we were taught that the sky is always layered with whitish cloud, apple is always red or green and nothing in between.  There goes the days when there exist only right, selfless  or wrong choices without the ” what if”/ unthoughtful choices. How we grow !!

It’ s already graduation today that im facing, awaiting the offer letter from the ministry of health and simply arranging the puzzle of life not knowing the the right sequence. 

  beautiful qoutes adapted from Grey’s anatomy:

Meredith: Just when we think we figured things out, the universe throws us a curveball. So, we have to improvise. We find happiness in unexpected places. We find ourselves back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way. Sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.

i wanna shorten d 4 years of compulsary service n venture my interest :s

*Let’s keep finger crossed*

2) housemate turn to girls drama

3) buddy turn to complicated lump of protoplasma till i hav no place where i can go about anymore

4) now, laugh at me bcos im such a failure

laugh bcos i’ll hav d last laugh !!!!

eventhough i may not be as glimmering as those smartass out there  but i have 1 thing in me : perseverance n patience..

i may not reach it now but i will certainly be there ..SO laugh as u like !!!!

Every minute will be another moment.

Everyday will be another steps forward.

a little steps to a better tomorro..

jus when we hit rock bottom, there’s nothin much we can do but to jus believe , have faith take small baby steps blindly n slowly. 

someday, somewhere no matter where d future holds me to, i’ll jus tell myself. Life’s a masterpiece which unravels with the tickling time

so let’s stumble and learn 

cheyo ..is been quite a while * clearing cobweb*

conversation 1

conversation v jansen * auntie, how many years old d go pak tor la, don so keras kepala la*

me : YA, I Will, don hav to remind me tht im way over the age d

conversation 2

me: this hospital ok..i takut lar

tsuyin: don worry la, no matter where they post u to.. d final verdict is still adaption, if u be more welcoming, make more friends, u’ll be fine

here’s d 2 memorable conversation of d week !!!

anyway, d long awaiting day have finally arrived, my 4 years of preparation, sobbing, mental torture, physical expansion as in fat due to exam, long night studyin, sleepness  will finally pay off. i’ll be having a interview for the government posting. browse through all i could..lets hope for d best:)

lighten d darkness, colourled d blunt, smile for tomoro

bernice hopes that d world will be all fine esp to my luv 1 *kisses*

“Yeah, you and every other man in the world,” I replied dryly from across the formica table top. Jesus. What was I doing here? I hadn’t been to a Marie Callender’s in nearly a decade, and with good reason. The franchise was well past its prime; it felt as though the very air within its walls was fading, and if I continued to sit here in this ridiculously large booth, I would fade right along with it.

“I want to help you,” he insisted with raspy urgency. “You might be tired of working those ‘mind-numbing, soul-crushing gigs,’ as you call them, but the starving artist thing is too clichéd for you.” He leaned forward, brow furrowed. “How do you expect to feed yourself? I can see that you’re going hungry.”

“I have a fast metabolism,” I retorted, though the wolfish way in which I was devouring my burger wasn’t exactly subtle. “And what do you mean when you say you want to help me? How do you propose to do that?”

“You need money…right?”

“Yes, I always need money, but what would you want in return? What do you want from me?”

“I don’t know what I want from you. I haven’t figured that out yet.” He had that look in his eyes, that hazy, glazed over, your-beauty-puts-me-in-a-trance look. It made me want to punch him in his stupid face or hurl or both.

“If that’s the truth…and you really do have this deep-seated urge to throw money at me…you’re going to have to come up with a task that utilizes my professional skills. I’m not comfortable with the idea of taking a hand-out.”

“Will you just relax?” he implored. “What changed between the coffee shop and here? You’re like a different person now.”

“No…you’re like a different person now. At the coffee shop, you and your cronies were a group of non-threatening old men who were fun and easy to banter with. I agreed to come to lunch with you because you seemed like good company…harmless. Now? I’m not so sure.”

“I’m insulted,” he sniffed. “If I’m going to help you, we need to be able to trust each other.”

The puppet master yanked the outer corners of my eyes and nostrils. Glaring and flaring, I epitomized Indignant Outrage.

“I just met you – how can you even suggest that? My stomach’s telling me that trusting you is the last thing I should do. Why is that?”

~ a normal phenomenon that is now ignorant *peace*  :)

let’s perform well, live well n wrap this up after all this days

i wanna see d world even though i need to work hard for tht

only if im allowed too*

i don wanna hav tons of hi bye friens,

jus friends which are normal..

i wanna hav friens who talk d same crap, laugh on d same crap, throw in to u when u r so fk up instead of having a second thought on u

i wanna watch anime, i wanna watch all d  my fav stuff n hav some one to talk the shit out of tht, laugh crap

i don wanna hear all d crap at home

i don wanna dream stuff that never come or exist..

i hate pretenders …..jinx !!!

i wanna smile bcos i smile, n smile not  bcos i hav too

fk up ~~~*pls switch it *

anyway exam is on …boo~~~

3 more papers n 5 more months n i’ll officially transform myself from a coccoon to a butterfly !! XD

officially, i’ll off to take take the route of an adult..working *.*

no more flexible holidays, no more pa-ma scholarship

maybe things will be better then …*full of hope*

i’ll pen off  this note with this song ..something which i found to be very true after all this years..maybe

some day * never knew why but i believe that it will be someday soon*

never regret things that you have done, d pain that u have gone through

but

regret on things that u never attempt or have no courage to do

2) i wont die from this shit

3) i wont die from this shit

JIAYOU BERNICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!